Awhile.

Don't go.
I didn't know you'd be here, and I wasn't meant to come.
I'd be sitting watching TV if there was anything decent on,
if I'd missed the taxi or found nothing good to wear.
But for some uncertain reason, some strange uncertain reason,
this is how it all,
it all began.

Why go, when you could stay awhile?
Why go, when you could stay awhile?

If I made some coffee, would you sit and talk some more?
I know words are usually pointless when you've used them all before.
The way your smile fills the room --
Stay awhile. Kick off your shoes. Don't go. Please stay. --
It always happened this way.

Why go, when you could stay awhile?
Why go, when you could stay awhile?
The way your smile fills the room --
Stay awhile. What's there to lose? --
The way you laugh, when I say, Don't go. Please stay.
Why go? Why go, when you could stay awhile?
Why go? Why go, when you could stay awhile,
when you could stay with me tonight?

I came home tonight and wrote you a letter. A love letter. I was more honest in that letter that I have probably ever been and as I wrote it I was overwhelmed by a sense of euphoria and melancholy at the same time. My hands were trembling and my breaths were short and heavy, pulling me deeper into this utterly confusing state through which I could not see at all, yet where everything was more clear to me, more real to me than I had ever though possible. I wrote until I could write no more, clicked the send button at the bottom of the window, then heaved a final sigh of relief and laid back as a feeling of complete serenity came over me. Today was beautiful. Every tiny detail and fleeting moment. And now I'm laying here, listening to this song over and over again, and counting down the hours. 48...47..46...

I miss you already. But I will see you again so very soon. Why go, when you could stay awhile? Because we both know that it's only temporary, that one day you won't have to go anymore. And I won't have to go anymore. And that thought draws a smile on my face that I'm sure I'll still be wearing for much longer than just awhile.